One full moon

One full moon to the next..it has been a month since then..since I left that place.
One thought came to mind; one significant day in this new year that I hope to treasure for as long as I can remember it.
..One short story.

One cool winter's morning on the first day of a new year,a little girl followed her family to visit her late grandma. The sky was blotted with patches of pillows and the sun shone through slightly, warming the air around. The journey was long and quiet but still life around the little girl hustled and bustled.

She had never met her grandma. She only heard stories of her grandma's diligence and determination to make a better life for her family, and to strive to become someone with education and status. In doing so, she sacrificed her health and her time, and it cost her her life. However, she gained something more precious than anything in this world, and though she lost her life; she saved her family.

If it was not for this precious gift, that little girl would not be able to have the opportunities that she has in her life. She would not have the memories that she can visit now or the experiences that she can take with her wherever she goes. She wished she could have met this woman, her grandma, but she can only hope to meet her one day at the end of the journey.

That night the moon seemed to smile at her, and the stars seemed to be winking as they played peek-a-boo with the clouds. It may have been a strangely cold winter night but she huddled with her loved ones to keep each other warm, keeping each other off the thought of being cold or alone through laughter and past memories.

Now the moon is hiding but the stars have come out to play. The air is strangely cool on this one summer night and still life is just passing by as the little girl shares the moment with her loved ones. Remembering to treasure time and take time to share a moment with loved ones.

They will be the only ones there when you tie your first shoelace, write your first word, graduate from school, get married and have children and.. They will be the only ones there when you are sick, when you feel lonely, when you alone in the cold, when you are happy or when you just want someone to listen. When no one is there for you anymore, when you have forsaken your loved ones, when you have drawn to a place too far away until you are lost; it might be too late. To remember to take a time to treasure some moments and to share something with someone.

Strangely beautiful things..

Some things I have captured along the way but never really looked at..
amazing how some things pass you by yet we never seem to notice them..










to be continued..

the war within

Each day is full of events. I try to live each day to the fullest, but today I wasted an hour dreaming until somebody woke me up..

I work, I play, I eat, I sleep and I have my quiet times, but still I feel weak. I feel like there is just no time or maybe there is plentiful but how one uses it is another story. It feels like a war between will and way. Though we can plan for so many things in life, there are greater plans that are carried through; not mine or anyone else's but only one plan...

God's way

As I walk along life’s pathway,

I encounter thorns that hinder my way.

I try to push past them but injure my hands.

As I walk along life’s pathway,

I encounter rocks that hinder my way.

I try to kick them aside but injure my feet.

As I walk along life’s pathway,

I encounter a dead end that hinders my way.

I try to find new ground to tread on but fail in all my attempts.

Dear Lord, I wish to stop using my way.

I wish for You to guide me and instruct me in my path.

With one word You cause the thorns to move aside,

With one word You cause the rocks to disappear,

With one word a new path appears before me.

Praise be the Lord, the Almighty God,

for His Way is always the best way!

Let me no longer lean upon myself,

but let me trust in the Lord each and every step along life’s pathway.

..shared from a little brother close to my heart:

<http://darkcape123-jordan.blogspot.com/2009/01/gods-way.html>

(I am at a loss for words..)

Counting Stars

Last night, it was the most beautiful scene, I wish you (all) could have been there to see it.

The whole night was filled with stars; stars that were dim, stars that were bright, stars of different shades of silver, gold and blue, and the stars were uncountable (might have even been falling stars or shooting stars?). But as the stars in the night cannot be counted, I thought so are my blessings are just as uncountable. I can not even think of all the possibile ways that I am blessed, but neither should it be taken for granted.

Some blessings may be small and dim like those stars, while others are greater and brighter. Like a star could be a different shade, maybe each blessing happens in a different aspect of life. I just need to remember that as a star's beauty cannot be compared to another because of many elements, whether it be the age of the star, how stongly it burns, the distance it is from earth.. I just need to remember my blessings cannot compare to another and that these blessings are sufficient for me that I should be contented always.

Force to face my fears

No matter how I want to avoid this.. I have to face my fears now.

After returning from a month's break, now one by one the workload is adding on. But I shall remember I am not alone.. and my hopes will keep me going for the new year for the moment.

I shall not forget to look for a full moon every now and then. Time passes faster when you are having fun :)

What is Fear?

As I resolved to challenge every ride possible in the theme park,
I wondered what is fear?


Is it the sudden plunges that stir us up inside?
..is it the sharp turns that scare us?
..is it the idea of off the ground that arouses that fear?
..is it the saftey precautions that begin that twisted feeling within?
..is it being upside down that turns our mindset off the ride?
...why all the thoughts?

Why all the contemplations, the doubts and this fear?


In this world, we can fear many things but it is this fear that keeps everything in order. I wondered if I feared heights, failing exams, hurting myself, what I eat the next day, what I am going to do tomorrow.. If I feared what others think of me, of what my family expects of me, what my future holds, then should I not all the more fear what God wills for me?

I have always wanted to conquer all my fears, taking the words of man lightheartedly, trying the activities that make me most afraid, simply becoming neutral to the fears in this world. But I cannot overcome my fear. I am still weak because I am only human and it is in our nature to have such basic instincts. I only long to understand what it means to fear the Lord for that is man's all.

a new beginning.

i do not know where to begin,
or how to begin,
but this is the beginning.