learning to..to

note to myself: to take a look from a different angle.

its ironic that one must learn to become a teacher to teach. then i heard that teaching is a learning process in itself. i guess thats why i find it so interestin that i am learnin so that i mite teach one day? sometimes i think that a teacher is jus that way..i hav never thot of all the work that they hav to do to achieve any progress, any outcome in their students, and its not easy!

mayb i am procrastinatin but i cant keep goin on like this, i cant keep learning sumfin then giving up because i hit problem i cant solve or if sumfin seems too hard. its always been in my nature to give up or run away because i dun know how to handle sumfin. I try to ignore the problem, i try to neglect the problem or i run away far from it, hoping it will go away..but i cant go on like this, because the problem will always be there to haunt me because... it is within me.

i hav to stay here, face the problem and wait for an answer. something i hope to learn, something i must teach myself first before i can one day teach in hope that they will learn something from me. this thought hit me because i struggled to simply "guide" some students through their maths/english work, then what about teaching!?

i think id rather learn..got to stay a little longer and take a look around me..

(someone asked me why i started this blog--my answer: i guess i was trying to run away..but this time i hope this new-er start will endure longer)