cold..

As winter begins and the cold settles in, I forgotten how much I used to look forward to the arrival of winter, the long dark days, the extreme cold, the pouring rains, and the fat patches of black clouds. But this year, I seem to miss autumn more--I will miss the extra hours of daylight, the warm sunlight, the innocent fluffy white clouds, and tender temperatures.

I saw a rainbow today, as I walked under the drizzling rain. Then I remembered that I have a promise to keep..even if I am in the middle of winter now. It might be dark. There might be no light. There might be no life. I might get worried or lonely, and shame may build in my heart as I watch this winter pass by. I might think how is it possible that something good might come out of this winter?

But if winter does not pass by, the grass and the flowers that I see everyday will not be more beautiful than they were last time. Winter may bring many unpleasant events of clouds crying, dark skies, rains that drown everything, and cold days, but when it passes everything will be able to grow again into a more beautiful thing. And a part of this winter will be in the grass and the flowers and in everything else.

No matter how long and cold and dark the days are and sleepless the nights, only when I have been through the darkness with Him will I know that He is always there. "Why" is not important anymore if I can just believe that He will redeem the pain for my good and His glory. If I learn to trust Him, my heart will no longer demand answers, but I will be happy.